For those of you that know me personally, {or have been reading my blog for a while at least} you will know that Im not the kinda girl who does things by halves. I mean, I got all out, and thats one of the traits that I am proud of, one of the things that I love about myself. I give 100% in everything I do, whether its school, work, love or friendship. I guess I just dont believe in doing things half heartedly. Its not in my DNA to give up, or give a little. I am also the kind of girl who likes to be busy. And Im not talking about a little bit busy. Im talking about, doing 7 different things at once, while working 2 jobs, trying to run a business and starting different projects on the side just to keep me on my toes {I cant wait to share some of these with you!}
Though, I have come to learn, that with giving yourself completely to everything that you do, comes risk. Great risk sometimes. Now, Normally I would say that the risk is worth it, it might not appear it in the beginning {in fact it almost never appears it in the beginning}, when you are nursing a broken heart, drowning in a sea of uncompleted tasks or counting on someone else to make your life make sense but when it all passes and you are left with that feeling of satisfaction that you created something wonderful, or were part of something that might just make someone elses day, or that the memories that you have with that person are irreplaceable, and that they actually really did shape you into the person that you have become today, it all becomes worth it. At least, thats what I am telling myself.
There is a bunch that is going on in my life right now. Somethings that are awesome and make me really really happy {like the fact that on tuesday im getting tattooed...again} somethings that are making me a little bit stressed {like this meeting next wednesday that is going to decide my future plans} and somethings, that are making me a little upset. However, I guess its times like that latter, that test your character. And I know who I am. And I will stand strong in that. Thats the most important thing. And so, I keep telling myself that as long as there is balance between these different aspects, that I cant really complain. That there are people in this world that have it a hundred, a thousand, a million time harder than I have it, and that they manage to stay alive, to stay focused, to stay smiling. With that, I keep moving forward. I keep finding new things to busy myself with, I keep pushing the boundaries on what I can do with my existence, and most of all I keep hoping that I am making a difference.