Thursday, July 15, 2010


I want to sleep in on Sundays.
I want to believe that people can change. And that you have.
I want to close my eyes and wake up somewhere new and exciting, surrounded by people who genuinely care about the things that are important
I want to know what those things are.
I want direction.
I want to meet every inch of this world, and get to know it intimately.
I want to be held sometimes.
I want it to be okay when I get sad, and not have to be the strong one.
I want someone to want to take care of me.
I want to eat chocolate and icecream and not feel guilty.
I want to feel beautiful.
I want to be beautiful.
I want that feeling back, you know the one.
I want everything to work out. I hope that it will.
I want to talk on the phone until one of us fall asleep like we use to.
I want to feel your presence strongly again.
I want meaning.
I want to be covered in beautiful art that tells my story, even if no one else understands it.
I want to be able to listen to those songs and not get upset anymore.
I want you to know that you are loved.
I want to inspire someone, to do something great.
I want to do something great.
I want to know his plan.
I want to be your friend, even though you dont want to know me.
I want to spend the weekend watching boxsets and eating ginger kisses again.
I want those little things to matter more than those big things.
I want to dance in the rain again.
I want to tell you that I think you are beautiful, and that it doesnt matter what anyone else says because you are amazing.
I want to be part of this adventure.
I want love.
I want to be able to scream from the rooftops.
I want to write beautiful music, even if its only for my ears.
I want to be able to trust you, and you to be able to trust me.
I want to create something beautiful.
I want to know the meaning of it all, even though, sometimes I wonder if there is any meaning.
I want to put my feet in the pacific ocean.
I want to feel part of something bigger than what I am doing on a day to day basis.
I want somewhere to come home and relax.
I want to escape into the comfort of a book.
I want to make a change.
I want to explore beyond the everyday.
I want get lost.
I want to stop waiting for something to happen, and make it happen myself.
I want it to be okay to call you in the middle of the night again.
I want let go of everything that is hurting me.
I want you to know I wish it could of been different.
I want to believe that everything happens for a reason.
I want to sing.
I want to scream.
I want to feel something.
I want to run.
I want to walk outside without a jacket and not get cold.
I want to see the world differently.


  1. simply beautiful tillie~ love it ~ every word!

  2. You are beautiful.
    You do inspire me.
    This is a lovely post, I hope you get what you want Till.

  3. i know how that feels, to have so many wants... *sigh*

  4. That was so lovely to read. I hope you get everything you want. *Internet hugs*

  5. Tillie, this is absolutely amazing. I love it so much! Thank you for sharing! xo

  6. Totally lovely post my friend, very touching.

    your penpal :)

  7. So lovely. I'm so happy to have found your blog, what perfect timing. I don't know you, but I can say in all truth. You are beautiful and you are love.

    Happy weekend. xo.

  8. Hello :)

    I saw your comment on the Indie Fixx website and I wondered if you'd like to exchange letters (I would have emailed but you didn't leave contact details on your comment). My name is Sally, I'm 27 (this Friday!) and I live in London, England with my two cats. I love writing letters and creating mailart. You can see some on my blog at I work for a charity, am pretty creative and love baking, writing, visiting museums etc, theatre, cinema and picnics in the park.

    My address is on my blog, or you could send me yours if you'd like me to write first :)

    I hope you're having a wonderful day!

    Best wishes,