Seasons are a funny thing, they bring with them change, and, well I'm not sure about you, but change for me can either be really good, or really not good. I seem to be one of those people that either needs change, to break the constant, to keep me interested, to inspire and motivate me. Or, I avoid change, because with change brings an unsettling feeling that things weren't okay all along, that I didn't have the control I thought I did, or that someone, or something no longer belongs in my life the way that they use to. The seasons have definitely changed now. Summer, is a distant memory, more distant for me I suppose, seeings as I spent 2 of my summer months in America, during their winter, experiencing not only 16 states of an amazing country, but, snowfall, friendship, history, breathtaking views and moments I will not soon forget.
So summer has left me behind, and autumn has made itself quiet comfortable. The days and nights have lost their warmth, the jackets and the scarves has been dusted off and are becoming a more frequent wardrobe choice than the cotton summer dresses. The blankets have been pulled from the shelves they so quietly sat for the past few months, and have found themselves piled onto my bed, and around my knees while I watch dvds on the couch instead of sitting outside on the loungers soaking up the rays of the sun. Not only has the weather changed, but the colour of my surroundings. The bright and fresh colours of the sun, the beach, the parks have been substituted with the browns and oranges and reds of leaves covering the ground as I walk to the store to pick up the bottle of milk needed to bake the cookies I have been thinking about.
So, as I sit here, and contemplate the change of the seasons, it leads me to think about the change I have seen in myself, and the people around me in the last little while. I guess this is a season in my life, that has made me, and I believe will continue to make me a little uncomfortable. Not uncomfortable in a bad way, just, in a different way, a way that challenges me, and a way that makes me evaluate the future. Friends, places, and ultimately dreams. I guess I will keep you posted on how that all pans out, because right now, everything is a little up in the air.